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it's rough; but this love is soft

Journal Entry: Fri Jan 8, 2010, 2:16 AM
  • Mood: Yearning
  • Listening to: Bright Eyes;; Mirrors and Fevers
give me



i want to rush past the security and hug him one last time
make a huge scene
kick and scream
rip free
one last hug
everyone is quiet
and then they applaud
and epic music begins to play
and the cops over look what is happening
and then the time goes back to real time
and the music stops
the cops rush back to me
jerking my arms from his body
the time slows again
my arms and legs float as the cops pulls me
time goes back to normal
they get me out fully
i let a tear slide down my cheek
and mouth the words goodbye (that parts in slow motion too)
and then the cops put me back outside and throw me into a car
but the crowd starts buu-ing
telling them to stop
defending me
and the cops looks around. slow motion
rush into the car
close the doors
look at me
the side kick looks at me and says
i wish i had a girl do that to me ;; i wouldn't be divorced now
the main cop looks at me
hard, in the eye
the side kick gets out
lets me out
tasers the main cop
calls him a lovekill
and then to me, says
get him girl
but by that time
my love is boarding the plane
walking out to the stairs;
TSA finds the tasers
they taser me to the ground
i fall in slow motion
as he takes a glance back
putting his hand up and then letting it fall in the air
NOW IS THE COOL PART. ALTERNATE ENDINGS!
he rushes back past the other people in line
pushes thru the security inside
and next to my side
and idk what happens
ororor
he turns his back to me, smiles, boards the plane
and watches from his 15c seat
as i get thrown onto a xray machine
to be searched
and then sent free




In Another Life

Journal Entry: Mon Oct 12, 2009, 11:36 PM
  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: Yanni
i hate colds :/

I miss working with my Nikon EM and film. I didn't like how I had to go to (at the time) instructor's house, but I did enjoy my negatives and images.

And my control over the focus. And the lighting. And the realness of creating an image, not just some fancy pixels in a digital point and shoot :/

I was looking on ebay for a Canon Rebel (I prefer a Canon dslr to a Nikon dslr) and I found an auction for ten new ones (like in those ebay "stores") that came with three lenses, a bag and etc, for $600. I was a bit ecstatic. On the website the Canon Rebel is about $600/700 by itself.

I had SATs this past Saturday. Still waiting for results (and will be for the next 4 weeks >.<;) and on the 24th I have the ACT.

I don't want to grow up because I do not want to deal with college applications that are piling up and... I do not want to think about not being accepted into University of Florida. It's my top school and one of the best in the nation.

Narwhals :(


Hurrah

Fri Sep 18, 2009, 12:15 AM
  • Mood: Optimism
  • Listening to: Airborne Toxic Event
  • Reading: The Chosen
  • Watching: The L Word
  • Playing: Tumblr
  • Eating: Salad
  • Drinking: V8 Tangerine&Passionfruit
I am back. Well, I was always here but I was a bit stagnant. Piffles, right?

Well, school has started (5 weeks ago) and my senior year is actually pretty easy, I do have a full schedule, though. I've been busy, but not stressful busy like with school work, but with college applications and taking my sister places and babysitting for the whole afternoons of Wednesday and Friday.

I've been all over the place with photography but nothing that I deem worthy. It's a lot of pointless pictures that will be for the yearbook. (Yay being chief editor =) ) I've become pretty addicted to tumblr. It's stupid and I hate it but, ... I really love my tumblarity =o

Anyways, what do you guys wanna see? I'm not working with film atm, mainly because I'm not with my teacher like I was last year. And also, the whole class was bugging me because he had a totally different eye than me. But, I did create a portfolio of my sister without getting a shot of her face. =) Was an accomplishment. And.. yeah.

So, I think the main reason why I wasn't updating or uploading was because I felt so bummed that other people could picspam images redundantly of their face that was manipulated and made "pretty". It pissed me off because the person has just become a high end myspace photographer who knows how to use makeup and photoshop.

MOARR>_<<!

But I do love all my followers. Each and everyone of you.

(everytime I log into devart I get all hopeful that I might have recieved a DD =P yes, it is a silly idea)

...12 Months

Mon Aug 3, 2009, 7:07 PM
  • Mood: Peaceful
Of subscription. Yay :D

But I am sick of my gallery. I think I'm just sick of that portfolio I've been working on for 5 months... Yeah.

Hopefully some new ideas coming in. Sadly I will not be leaving the States with a new camera. D: Best Buy was torture. I was standing with all the SLRs for about an hour.

Lace & String

Sat Jun 6, 2009, 2:30 AM
  • Mood: Peaceful
  • Listening to: Stronger;; TRUSTcompany
Lace and string are two totally different things.
Lace = classy
String = grubby

Besides that, I've been working on my final portfolio and suite for my photography class. It's been a bit stressing; trying to shoot two rolls a week when I'd much rather sleep and my sister (the subject of the portfolio) would rather go out, and keeping ideas fresh and updated (not too overdone.)

I have four weeks left = two classes each week. Working with film isn't a quick process, either. Am having mixed feelings on my choice to focus so much on black and white film. :/

I have a whole list of objects and positions to reinvestigate with my sister. Some of them being the 3rd time reinvestigated. But this is what is: no quick show back of the image like a digital.

A couple of the images of the girl and her body parts (hands, feet, & the like) are all part of this portfolio. I think it's a decent subject for my first time but I also feel held back by it. I love taking random glamour shots and, if you will, fun shots. My teacher is a bit more of an abstract-ist. Well, I say that... He perfers to have the head of my dog cropped off on one side rather than seeing her Dobby-like (from HP) ears.

That's just his eye, though. And I know that other people perfer other angles of the head and whatnot, but it's so hard for me to find any criticism over here where I live. When someone sees a photo they're all "0oh, purdy!" >.<

Anyways. Still haven't gotten that subscription. Gave up on it, truthfully. I'm just waiting until I am in Florida and hopefully DevArt won't reject the card and location.!

Did I mention it's summer? And that I have my driver's license. :D

t. &hearts;

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